i was an idiot today. the teachers had a party, and i found out as i was walking out the door. this was further proof that no one thought to invite me. at dinner i was an idiot. i couldn't look at my mom as she ate. i  have something weird that doesn't allow my to be comfortable around others when they eat. we looked for a cell phone after at the store. the sales guy was nice. she couldn't decide between a flip phone, or something more animated. it will be for my dad. we left wit nothing. a girl that gives terrible advice called. i learned this fact last week. i'm lonely but i think i will stay inside and try to get some thoughts out.

she asked why i don't text her and i said i don't like my phone.

i need to learn to code. a new idea for messaging is racing through my head.